One of my life goals is to write a book, at least one. Hopefully more, but my bucket list only says, “Get A Book Published”, it is right below “Go Surfing”. I’ve always loved to read, to escape into the fantastic worlds that authors can create. It was so amazing to me how these characters could come to life inside my head, how I could connect with them and learn through their struggles.
I believe that the desire to tell stories is part of my calling as a believer. I remember when the Lord was asking me to give all my life to him, my shortcomings, my triumphs, my dreams, and my regrets. I was eager to give up everything but my desire to write. I was afraid that if I surrendered that dream to God, He would not give it back to me, but it would appear that I have been proven wrong, again.
Sometimes it is easy for me to get frustrated that I have not had a book published yet. I mean, I am already 24. Chance the Rapper has had three mixtapes out already. Taylor Swift was already a superstar at 22. It can be difficult for me to not get discouraged when I look at what other people have accomplished at a younger age than me. It makes me feel like i should either give up, or just rush it out. I usually sit paralyzed in the middle rewriting the first chapter of my book over and over again.
However, something my dad used to tell me when I was a child comes to mind, “Do you want it done fast or do you want it done right?” he would ask me. I remember always being tempted to say “fast,” but deep down i knew better.
“I want it done right...” I would reply, with a hint of sadness that I could not have both.
That idea has stuck with me through the years. In my faith and in my life. Sure, I could write a 600 page book in a couple months probably, but i doubt it would be done right. It is in the same manner that I have learned to approach my faith and the desires that God has put in my heart.
“Do I want it done fast or do I want it done right?”
If the plans God had for my life were meant to be fulfilled in a day then they would have been. I would have offered up my dream to be an author, He would have taken it, and then inspired me to immediately write the best novel that has ever been written. However, it does not seem to be the case. It is going to take time for me to write, it is going to take continually surrender of my ideas, creativity, and desires to God. It is the same with my mind and my heart. I have had, and will continue, to learn to be patient and trust that God will guide me to wholeness as I actively seek His heart and follow him with my life.
The work is not meant to be done quickly, but it is meant to be done right.